some thoughts

I didn't come here to write with a purpose, but just because I feel so passionately about something, yet no catalyst.

Abortion makes me angry. It makes me passionate. We live in a times right now where we should be open to letting everyone make all the damned decisions they want- and we should step back and let them. Why? WHY? It makes me so angry. It makes me angry b/c it's ingrained in us from an early age. It makes me angry because it's hard to push away the thoughts that it would make us a terrible person if we fight for what we KNOW is right.

I have a made a new friend. He is... very different than I. We banter on about things, and he is pretty much my polar opposite on most topics. He says that many things I consider "right" or "Wrong" are not as such- they are, in fact "opinion" and thus cannot be pushed onto others. "Sleeping around is wrong"- that's an opinion, and unfair to use the word "Wrong" on because that implies moral absolutes. Or something. But, in the end, I still feel I am right about things.

I want to be strong, a Catholic, woman of God. Instead, I feel like a feeble mouse, trying to play a game of balance, or trying to not look like a bad person by disagreeing with the social majorities. I have no strength. I need to learn how to ask God for it.

It's been quite awhile...

I feel like this keeps being my title. I haven't had much to write about, and so I've been quiet. I took a break from the church choir "So my husband and I could attend mass together" but rather we ended up missing skipping it a lot. So I think this week I'm going back.


The holiday season was quite crazy- working 2 retail jobs and all. Now I'm back to very little hours, and trying to catch up on taking care of the house... way behind on this task!

Now, we are looking at moving out to Texas. Hopefully March-April. T will transfer at his job, I am going to work for my dad while I look for work, and I plan to start training to be a midwife with the Association of Texas Midwives (http://www.texasmidwives.com/education/course.asp) I'm really really excited about this. I'm also to attend my first birth this month. My sister-in-law is pregnant with child #2 (a girl) and T and I will be the Godparents! So she invited me to be at the birth so I can see what it's like, plus it's my Godbaby! I'm so excited!

I'm also feeling called to be involved in the pro-life ministries- not sure what yet, but it's been really pulling at my for a while now. I don't really know how to, and many of my friends don't know how much I've changed (used to be pro-choice, a long time ago) so it will be a battle on occasion, I'm sure.

So that's the short of what's going on!